for the people I love
in this future we would
rather not step into
I am trying to make a place for us
beneath the still and calming sea
Where the water gently
barely
moves our bones collected
together
under refracted sunlight
as the world moves on
I am trying to imagine my future
as rest and peace
even if I am one of the drowning ones
If I imagine over
and over
(it is such necessary work)
the gasping
the desperation
until my eyes are sore
with looking
if I keep going until
my soul is too tired
to ache
the storm will settle and the waters quiet
I will see
just beneath the surface
the sanctuary I have created
for myself
for us
where sunlight is no longer
an insult
where breath is no longer a necessity
where a rainbow can still
somehow
be a gesture
of love
and
light
